Hey all!

Its been awhile since i updated my journal so I decided to get to it.

In my last journal I wrote about getting a job at Fish Bonz Bait&Tackle shop. While its defiantly not my first pick at what I wanna do with my life, I'm actually enjoying my work there. I like the people i work with and the stress level is not very high despite being a retail position. Added bonus of being in a more managerial position helps too.

Aside from that, me and Kt { } had a long talk about the moving situation. For anyone who reads this and doesn't know, me lu-chan { } have been trying to move down to Georgia to live with Lu's gf Kt who is also a very good friend of mine.But so far lack of funds and no real planning have made it difficult. Well Kt and I talked, and its been pretty much decided that Lu will move down first this coming March and I will be moving the following march {2011}. There were several reasons behind this decision. On the whole...Im relieved. Trying to sudden scrape up a secure amount of money in less then a year had me stressed. Plus this give Lu and KT time to get used to living together. But on the other hand, Im a bit upset and depressed. I was REALLY hoping to move out of my house, and celebrate my 24th birthday with a new life in a new town , big fresh start to my life. I was really pumped. But again, as a whole this works out much better for all of us. I cant just think about myself in this since it involves all of us. I can;t help though, feeling disappointed and a lil sad. It means my best friend wont be in driving distance anymore for a year. I think that's gonna be the hardest part. We'll manage somehow.

Anyway. I went to see a doctor before i got my job. I had been having these terrible mood swings before my time of the month, swings that were really causing fights between my friends and i to explode, and even a few with my family. It wasn't until the last fight with Lu and KT that i realized the pattern. So I saw Dr.Keeley {who btw is SOO very helpful she actually listened to me and understood that I know how my body is normally so she didnt try and pretend she knew me better then i knew myself} and she decided {with my input} to change my diet and exercise routines as well as close monitor any swings i might have. So ive been keeping not only a food diary but a mood log that gauges my feelings on a daily basis. So far its been going well. My moods aren't so erratic anymore, and when i feel myself start to get over emotional over something ive started pulling myself back.

She also suggested i think about going back into therapy *grumbles*...I hate shrinks...I really do. I know I have control issues, and I know I have poor self esteem which leads me into these depressive states. I know these things, I dont need someone else telling me , I need someone to tell me how to fix it. And so far 2 pyscologists and a social worker later, all i did was make them feel like idiots because before they could even talk i told them what was wrong and after two hours of talking for 6 days they couldn't prove me wrong...Anyway.

On a higher note! AWA is coming soon and I just cant wait ^^. I actually splurged and got myself a new costume. Im going as my all time favorite female character ever....LINA INVERSE!! *squeee* I love Lina so much! and next year the new slayers series comes to america so I decided to kind of beat out the crowds and kick start the launch ^^. So this year Ed and Lina {because i ALWAYS go as Ed and plus FMArotherhood is debuting soon too sooooo} ALSO ANY FELLOW RANGERS OUT THERE PLEASE COME FIND ME AT AWA!!!! IVE ONLY MET A FEW SO FAR AND I WANT TO MEET AS MANY RANGERS AS I CAN!!!

As far as my books are, they are coming a long, art is slow now that ive got work. Don't expect many finished pieces lol. Ill be posting more sketches then colored works.

That's it for now~
Peace my peeps!


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